The Blogging Bae

  Earlier today, I was told by a friend that they never realized how “intense” I was. Granted this person and I aren’t that close, I was a little taken aback by the comment. It seemed to come completely out of left field.   The only question I asked was how are you?  “Like...really...how are you? Good...explain...bad...the same.”  I never assumed this question was an intense topic!  However...in the last year, I have come to grips with the gritty reality that most humans would rather be swarmed by superficial conversations and surrounded by light hearted bravado’s. Most humans want easy peasy.  Okay...I admit it. I am intense. Not all the time...but ...most of the time. I feel deeply and think deeply.  My mother says it’s because I have an old soul but this seriousness also comes from being an empath. I didn’t ask for this...but it’s my life. Trust  me, if I could...I’d shut this shit down.  More importantly though, this is me and even though I am a serious person, I’m super positive a

  This past week I finally had a creative spark. It might have taken me clawing my way through the month of February to find it...but I finally did. Now that March has hit, it appears my creative lull is over.   I started on my fan fiction story. The one I want to send out to publishing houses.  For me, this was huge because I’m not at all a fiction writer and I was at a standstill. Sure, I’ve written a few short stories here and there but those were strictly for fun or at the very least an assignment given to me in college. Other than that though, fiction writing has never been my forte...even though I know this genre is my meal ticket.  It’s hard to write fiction because I’m too much in my head most of the time. I kid you not...it’s often where I can be found. I personally don’t mind it because I’m used to it by now but being in one’s head, a fictional story does not make.  Then I heard a song...or two actually and it was the pep talk I needed, the spark of joy I was looking for...or

  All it takes is one song. Just one...to make the words trapped in mind find their proper release.  Yesterday...after many jumbled thoughts still couldn’t find their outlet, I heard a song. It got me thinking. About the past...the present...and of course, the future. You know...the type of shit that keeps one up at night.  So much of my story is still very much unwritten. I’m 40 after all but ‘line by line’ is waiting to be etched in. One day down, one step closer. The unknown waiting to be written down.  The words to the song were reminiscent. They reminded me that the feelings I have are real and tangible. They were never fleeting. It just took an awakening. It took eyes opening. It took a triggering of sorts.  Songs and music have always done this to me. I’m sure I’m not the only one? A specific track can take me back or propel me forward and no matter what these songs and these lyrics always find their way to me at just the right moment. Much like many things in my life-the timing