The Blogging Bae

  Two posts in ONE day! Yeah, it has been that kind of day.   “No, baby.” Two words I just read that weren’t directed at me. It's the “baby” that kills me. Even though I know it shouldn't. The situation doesn't allow it… and in reality… IT REALLY SHOULD NOT MATTER BECAUSE I DIDN’T MATTER MUCH FROM THE BEGINNING.  I feel dumb! I feel stupid. I feel like screaming and smashing my phone in the road but that won't cure anything and I am tired from it all.  You know... All I really wanted was to feel secure in knowing that I held a special place. And, maybe that was my fault.  I wanted to be this person’s “baby,” but I am just mixed in with all the other “babies” out there. What a stupid, silly word that is… baby! BABY! Fucking, baby!!!  I hate this word now. I hate how freely it is used by him and the power it holds over me! I hate my stupid heart for caring and believing and continuing to hold out hope. I hate that I can't let go and this love just keeps breaking me! I

  Hello! So, tomorrow where I live is Thanksgiving. I like to call it Turkey Day and Leftovers Week because that's what it really is but traditionally is called, “Thanksgiving.”  A lot of people are surrounded by family and friends on this day. Everyone eats, drinks, watches football, and then goes to bed stuffed and drunk. Depending on the family, it also can be considered the day you argue with all your relatives who have a different point of view about things like politics and religion than you do!  This year, just like last year… I will be stuffing my face with a crowd of small! I don’t mind it. I am not exactly down with crowded houses or airports or family fights. It is what it is. Not to mention, I got to see my mom a couple of weeks ago and that was a beautiful trip that I will never forget.  Besides that… I need to clean my apartment…. And I am using this holiday to do so! I wanted this to already have been done but last weekend I sprained my ankle and couldn't do much

  Hello, all! I guess you are wondering where I have been. It's been over a month since my last post!   Well, in October I got a second job. That swallowed up a lot of free time! If you have read a few of my recent posts, (which I have noticed a sudden spike in this blog’s activity and I appreciate that greatly… and I will discuss more about this in a little bit) you know I was trying to take a trip overseas.  I MADE IT HAPPEN!!!! I WENT TO LONDON AND PARIS TO VISIT MY MOM AND AN OLD FRIEND.  I just returned yesterday! Yes, I am trying to make the best out of being back in the States because I do love where I live but if you asked me honestly, I would tell you this… I want to be back overseas! I belong in Europe. Not only because I was actually born there but also because this trip just proved what I already knew… the person that I saw, I belong with and we have lived separate lives long enough.  I don't necessarily mean… I need to go move in with them right away but I do know