The Blogging Bae

January 🖕🏼my uncle passed away. 🖕🏼my car broke down. 🖕🏼I got extremely sick and am still very            sick. 🖕🏼I started the year off in a heavy state of contemplation. As in: I am not happy with my life at the moment. I am grateful for it and happy to be alive but, I want something different. A different job. A makeover for my apartment or a new location altogether. And as sadly as it sounds, yes… either a new start in my marriage or to go our separate ways… HOWEVER after almost nine years together… the latter seems like the most feasible of the two.  🖕🏼I am ending this shit month on my period. Yippee fucking skippie.  Now, settle down there Negative Nancy… let’s look at the bright side for a minute or two…  ✨my uncle is no longer in pain… even though I could have picked a couple of other assholes to have taken his place… that's the only solace I have.  ✨my car could have ended up being a lot worse. Instead, it was a minor fix that the job I dislike helped pay for. So

  Happy New Year! I hope you all had a wonderful holiday and are looking at the future bright-eyed and bushy-tailed.   I have experienced an exorbitant amount of emotions in the last two weeks. I blame myself though…. My expectations were set high and because of that they weren't really met. Oh well. As the saying goes, “That’s life.”  Instead of dwelling, I decided to reset and refocus my energy. What I cannot change is out of my control… What I have control of, is under my spell per se.  Meaning, that I am focusing on these things over anything else.  For the past couple of years, I have spilled energy into areas of my life that have just disappointed me. They have been at the forefront instead of taking a backseat. Just as I have taken the backseat… because you know, “That’s life.”  And life is busy and YOU are more or less a choice in prioritizing. I guess it took these past two weeks to see that. To really understand it.  To finally accept it.  So here I am… acknowledging this