The Blogging Bae

  It’s dreary and cold outside and I have been sick all weekend. Needless to say, I’m not in a very good mood.   But those aren’t the reasons behind my salty attitude… it goes deeper than that. Even though I hate being sick, I will get over it. Even though I hate the shitty weather, I can layer up and distract myself with things indoors. No. None of that is the reason. The real reason… my patience is wearing thin.  Currently, I am confused. Irritated. Frustrated. Sad. I’m in a headspace that seems to be controlled by someone else. Someone who holds all the cards. Plays them when they want but holds them close most of the time. I get bits and pieces. Bread crumbs thrown out just to keep me there… waiting for fucking more… because I’m starving and I need more.  I’ve never been a selfish person. I’m not even sure I know how. I deal with a lot. I forgive a lot and there have only been a couple of times when I have completely walked away. Disappeared from someone’s life that made it clear m

  Give Me Everything And I Will Give You More I woke up this morning with this weird feeling in my gut! My intuition is on high alert or it's playing tricks on me. Which happens on occasion, I will admit. I'm not even sure what is going on because I can't exactly put my finger on what I am feeling and why.  I even went as far as canceling my plans today to drive into the mountains and go soak in a hot spring. I thought maybe my feelings had something to do with driving a distance and that wouldn't be safe. Alas, this nagging feeling is still here.  I worked out and tried again to clear my mind but that was only temporary and I'm still wracking my brain as to what exactly is going on. What is my gut trying to tell me?  Everything seems to be in order and there aren't any real concerns sitting at the forefront but for the last 48 hours, my intuition is saying something else.  I dislike not knowing because I feel like I have zero control and I know I can't cont