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This Fear’s Got A Hold Of Me

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It’s the end of week two of quarantine. I think? At this point, I’m not even sure what day it is although I’m not necessarily paying attention. If I do, days feel like years. My life isn’t much different outside of quarantine. I work remotely and live cross country from most of my friends and the few gal pals I have here are much further away than just next door and even if they were just next door, ‘social distancing’ is still required. For the sake of human kind...I’m staying in.  I have come to the conclusion that when we can get back to some sort of normalcy...I will be okay with not hearing the following words or phrases: quarantine, isolation or isolate, social distancing, and in these trying times...for years to come. In fact, I’m okay with never having to hear them ever again. That’s right...2020’s version of on fleek or bae or any other generational slang term that’s come and gone sucks. You can have these hashtags and shove ‘em where the sun doesn’t shine.  My hu

Trying To Put Meaning To The Struggles

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Between my car engine blowing up, my mom’s cancer scare that turned into a hospital hostage takeover situation, and the Covid-19 monster, I have aged 20 years.  And as time progresses and more news comes rolling in concerning Covid-19, I am aging even more. Life, I guess always get worse before it ever truly gets better?  You know....up until now, I have always looked much younger than my actual age...but this year...no this year....I have caught up, I have surpassed my soon to be age 40!  To celebrate I’m throwing myself a 60th birthday bash party because that is exactly the age I feel.  At least maybe now I won’t get carded as often.  Dear 2020:  You need to go back from the beginning and try again because this shit ain’t working. And when I said I felt a change in the air on New Year’s Day....this wasn’t the change I was talking about. Although....I understand...Mother Earth has finally stepped in and she’s had enough. And, I’d be lying if I I said I didn’

Ebb And Flow

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“ You will get where you wanna be, know you and your tenacity.”  My friend said to me.  “Thanks, man. I know. Just a hiccup and I know 2020 and beyond will shine. I’ve been through enough to prove myself worthy of living a glorious life....” ....”needed to hear those words regardless though. It means a lot.”  I replied.  With the good comes the bad and with the bad comes the good. Such is life I guess?  A test of loyalty and allegiance. A test of strength. A reminder that when times are tough one can be tougher... For those of you who are just reading this...feel free to go to other posts and catch up but if you want the condescended version and don’t want to read previous posts: my mom might have cancer and not to mention my car engine just blew up.  I live across the country from where the rest of my family lives. Including her. When I was 21, I moved two hours away to go to school and live my own life. My mom pushing me the entire time. Now was my chance