The Blogging Bae

  Happy New Year! I hope you all had a wonderful holiday and are looking at the future bright-eyed and bushy-tailed.   I have experienced an exorbitant amount of emotions in the last two weeks. I blame myself though…. My expectations were set high and because of that they weren't really met. Oh well. As the saying goes, “That’s life.”  Instead of dwelling, I decided to reset and refocus my energy. What I cannot change is out of my control… What I have control of, is under my spell per se.  Meaning, that I am focusing on these things over anything else.  For the past couple of years, I have spilled energy into areas of my life that have just disappointed me. They have been at the forefront instead of taking a backseat. Just as I have taken the backseat… because you know, “That’s life.”  And life is busy and YOU are more or less a choice in prioritizing. I guess it took these past two weeks to see that. To really understand it.  To finally accept it....

  Hi! Happy Thursday. I'm not really sure what is going on but my blog is exploding with readers.  This is the most exciting feeling ever. So, thank you!  Anyway… it's almost the weekend and since the surge in views has me motivated, I wanted to share a “mixtape” I made that inspired my first book,  Falling Backward .  Falling Free  will have an equally wonderful playlist but I won't share that until December when book two officially comes out.  For now though and because  Music is Life … enjoy this magical, musical selection. And if you like it or have enjoyed my other posts and what to support me even further, I'm attaching my book link as well. Let's get this thing sold!  Cheers, to goals! Cheers, to you! Cheers, to us!  https://spotify.link/n3vePIWdhDb  Falling Mixtape/Book One https://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/1639886672/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0?ie=UTF8&qid=&sr=  The Book! 

  It’s dreary and cold outside and I have been sick all weekend. Needless to say, I’m not in a very good mood.   But those aren’t the reasons behind my salty attitude… it goes deeper than that. Even though I hate being sick, I will get over it. Even though I hate the shitty weather, I can layer up and distract myself with things indoors. No. None of that is the reason. The real reason… my patience is wearing thin.  Currently, I am confused. Irritated. Frustrated. Sad. I’m in a headspace that seems to be controlled by someone else. Someone who holds all the cards. Plays them when they want but holds them close most of the time. I get bits and pieces. Bread crumbs thrown out just to keep me there… waiting for fucking more… because I’m starving and I need more.  I’ve never been a selfish person. I’m not even sure I know how. I deal with a lot. I forgive a lot and there have only been a couple of times when I have completely walked away. Disappeared from someone’s life t...

  Give Me Everything And I Will Give You More I woke up this morning with this weird feeling in my gut! My intuition is on high alert or it's playing tricks on me. Which happens on occasion, I will admit. I'm not even sure what is going on because I can't exactly put my finger on what I am feeling and why.  I even went as far as canceling my plans today to drive into the mountains and go soak in a hot spring. I thought maybe my feelings had something to do with driving a distance and that wouldn't be safe. Alas, this nagging feeling is still here.  I worked out and tried again to clear my mind but that was only temporary and I'm still wracking my brain as to what exactly is going on. What is my gut trying to tell me?  Everything seems to be in order and there aren't any real concerns sitting at the forefront but for the last 48 hours, my intuition is saying something else.  I dislike not knowing because I feel like I have zero control and I know I can't cont...

  The other day I wrote about dreams. Not of the ‘personal goals’ variety but actual dreams you have when you sleep.   I have them all the time. I remember them mostly and sometimes they are eerily accurate.  And sometimes they don’t make any sense at all!  But if you are, like me, the type of person that knows most dreams mean more than just another show you watch when you fall sleep… dreams run deeper than one psychological book would say. They are more in-depth than what you have on your mind that day.  Bear with me if you have heard this all before but here we go again with the mystery I have been trying to solve for almost a year now.  A while back I noticed a new follower on Spotify. I noticed them right away. I don’t have a large amount to begin with but what stood out was their name. If I put the letters together, I came up with someone I actually knew. I blame all those road trips I took as a kid where we played the license plate game or the fact t...

When I sleep I dream. I remember these dreams as if I was really there and for a while now my dream state is one of the main places I communicate with friends that have come and gone.  Most of the time, I love my dream world… specifically one place I often visit and know like the back of my hand. I haven’t been to this place in a while though and last time I was there was last year.    Right before a certain someone I saw in my dream reappeared back into my life.  However, they appeared as a stranger and I didn’t see the face. Just an arm full of tattoos and a motorcycle helmet that they wore.  At first, I thought it was just another human I met in this dream place because I often do meet strangers here… but then when they stepped into my reality.. this meeting made more sense. This was them and this was a premonition.  Now, I dream of them at least once a week… far more than I am ever willing to share. Not because I don’t want to, they just have made the c...

  Good morning friends, it’s Sunday here where I live and I got up early to embrace the day with full speed ahead. Even though I am fighting, yet again, another damn cold.  In about eight working business days, I will be reclaiming my life. I will be ending one chapter to start a new exciting one. I will no longer be looking at Sunday’s as going by way too fast or a ticking time clock calling me to bed.  I, come August 26th, will be putting my teacher’s hat away. Although this decision has been mulled over for months now and comes in waves in the most bitter and sweet of ways, it was a decision I had to make and a decision I am happy with making.  And even though I am a damn good teacher, my passion for teaching is no longer there… and I truly believe you should be passionate about what you do and where you place your majority of time and energy. Otherwise you are going to spend a lot of time regretting what you could have actually done.  This job, as a whole, i...