One Step. Two Words

 Hello, all! I hope you have a fantastic Christmas. Mine was wonderful. It was relaxing, fun, full of laughter,  and delicious food. 

This whole break has been glorious. It is exactly what I needed. I still stand saying, “I can't believe this year is almost over.” 

Up next, dancing into the New Year. Last year at midnight I watched fireworks because I couldn't do anything else. I injured my foot in November and there was no way I could continue my tradition of dancing when the ball drops. Luckily, my foot is all healed up and my tradition continues. 

I guess while I am at it, I should address the elephant in the room. My last post was all about taking the first step in regaining a lost friendship this year… via an apology. Well, I'm glad I did. Not only am I dancing into the new year, but I am going into it without any regrets… or things I could have done to better a poor situation. 

Sometimes, you have to be the first person to take that first step. 

I apologized and I feel good about that. I did get a response and I think it’s positive. I am not really sure given it was three heart emojis, but I am assuming that is a good sign. I know it wasn't words, but baby steps… and, not to mention, it was a response. 

To be quite honest, I was shocked when I saw it. I wasn't expecting it. Nevertheless, I was appreciative. I was happy that it at least I got something. 

This falling out has changed me. It made me realize not only my worth but also admitting my faults. Taking responsibility. Understanding that breaks are sometimes necessary to clear the air. It’s also made me more cautious… and that's okay too. I learned some valuable things. The main one—which will be my theme for 2025—I am staying in my own damn lane. No matter how much someone claims something or pleads with me. 

And, again, like I have said in previous posts… Yeah, this did directly involve me… BUT I COULD HAVE CHOSEN TO TAKE THE HIGH ROAD A WHILE AGO. I admit, that I let it get the best of me, and the love I have and the heart that belongs to me is a beautiful trait not worth allowing others to tarnish. 

And, regardless if I only got some emojis, in my opinion, it still means a door was left open and the olive branch has been extended. 

It means, in time, we can talk about everything under the sun except relationships. Lol. 

It means I might actually have my friend back. Not like before… but better. It means, my friend and I, no matter what, are bonded in a beautiful yet strange way and those are some of the best friends to have. Time nor distance change what the other means. 

Furthermore, life is too short to hold a grudge you had a hand in creating. 

I lived, I learned, I missed my friend for who they were and not what happened. I chose to step up and take accountability… I choose to dance and start fresh. 

That's what new years are for after all. 

Big hugs to you all and I hope you too, dance your little asses off when midnight rolls around. 

Oh, and p.s you still have time to tell someone, “You’re sorry.” Don't go into next year with the same weight you were carrying around all year. 

~x