Take A Chair

 

I have the next two days off. I decided to get some beer for tonight and I doing my due diligence to ensure there are zero emotional outbursts. Given the heightened state of my emotions, it has to be done this way. There is no reach… only me in my little YouTube Chuck and Blair hole. 

This couple and their up-and-down, passion-filled love affair is the only thing keeping me sane. 

Who are Chuck and Blair? They are the infamous couple on Gossip Girl. I was too old or working nights as a server when this show first came out, or I was hanging out with my friends-including the one that just passed away. 

GG always lingered in the background as that age group’s Beverly Hills 90201, and I am hooked. Blair and Chuck are what Brenda and Dylan were supposed to be. A love that never faded and finally got to see things through. 

I don't really watch a lot of regular TV but since I now have a television in my bedroom, I now have a chance to veg out on all the shows everyone has told me about. Oh yeah, another character in GG in that series, is the lead male in You. He creeps me out in both. His forehead bothers me and for some reason the show You bothers me as well. Like, really, lady you don't see the guy standing outside your window or notice the same man who is an earshot away from all your conversations reappearing. No? Never heard of spatial awareness. 

Even I, who has, in fact, had a stalker, and admittedly so not the most aware of her surroundings person in the world would notice the same lanky, goofy-looking dude lurking around every corner. 

I digress. 

I am fully invested in Gossip Girl and I understand why. The show itself is absolutely ridiculous and you could make a drinking game out of how many people storm off per episode but I relate to the passion and love between Chuck and Blair. Bowing out when you are forced to and loathing anyone who takes your place… knowing damn well in your heart no one ever will. 

There is this one scene where Blair finally tells Chuck that she has tried everything to rid herself of her feelings for him. Checkmate on that one. 

Then there is this scene where Chuck says he has always bet on her yet she has always bet against him. Or, something like that. You get the picture… Two people who care yet can't seem to align themselves. Yeah, buddy. Same. 

I am both Blair and Chuck. I am content. I am grateful for what I have and have settled with bowing out, hiding feelings, and understand that I was always bet against. But, I also know, somewhere deep down inside that person who gave up lives with some form of regret or at least wonders from time to time, “What if?” 

I know that passion isn't just meant for TV shows and that second and third and fourth chances do exist and as Chuck said, “If two people belong together, they will always find their way back.” 

So tonight I am going into a hole of indulgence and I am going to live vicariously through Chair-Chuck and Blair! 

I might also be taking a break from this blog for a bit. I keep pulling a Gossip Girl and blabbing everything on my mind. I get that's what blogs are for but I am starting to irritate myself. 

Hugs and Chairs to you all. 

~x~ 

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