The Blogging Bae

I had a dream last light. It was glorious and beautiful and it made me smile. My heart woke up this morning feeling every ounce of love that I believe had actually always existed but because of time and space and the choices we make, never truly had a chance to be shown.   I remember being with my family and turning around to see a long, lost friend standing only a few inches behind me. My breath was taken away. Much like it had been initially when my 20 year search finally paid off. Yeah, I know… who spends 20 years looking for someone? Especially after that search comes up empty handed time and time again? Especially when you are at a point where you almost give up and finally come to a resolution that this person will never be found. Especially when the story of us meant everything to me but come to find out really meant nothing to them.  Well, I guess I do. I kept searching until I almost didn’t. For 20 years, I kept this candle lit…in hopes that some universal pull would hel

    This weekend I threw in the white towel and accepted it as giant loss. Literally and metaphorically speaking. I was 110% an emotional wreck. Friday started out normally. I woke up, did the things I needed to do then worked into the wee hours to finish a project that needed to be done. During said project, a friend reached out. Knowing I physically didn’t have the time to give her the proper attention any friend deserves, I wrote back telling her I was working and I would call her the next day… at the very latest, sometime during the weekend. Because you know… I can’t very well dismiss my friend’s needs directly after writing and posting a blog spot about etching out time for the people in our lives.   By the time work was completed, I was exhausted and still had not eaten. So I made dinner… which had my husband and I eating much later than we usually do.  I wanted to read my friend’s message but given the tired state and the late night hours, I chose to put it off until the nex